God created me with a restless spirit. As long as I can remember I have always longed for adventure. I have always wondered what is waiting around the next corner or over the next hill. There is always a new trail to explore or a new treasure to find. I always have a new thought to ponder or a new question to ask. Words like “routine” or “settled” cause panic to rise up in me. And I have seen the panic in the eyes of those around me when I feel the impulse “change things.” Why can’t I just be happy where I am? I have a torment in my soul – why CAN’T I just be satisfied?
I have had a great life – with many satisfying pieces, but the questing has always remained. Sometimes I have filled that yearning with God, and there are times I have not. I have searched for wrong pieces, wandered down wrong paths, chosen wrong adventures – and I have landed in dire situations.
You may think I am crazy. You may long for constancy, continuity and routine. The thought of “pushing the envelope” causes panic in your heart. You may be cautious, careful and consistent in order to create an environment that satisfies your spirit. Do you know why He created you with a need for security and safety? So that He could BE Faithful, Constant, and Unchanging for you. Deuteronomy 33:12 says “He surrounds them continuously, and preserves them from harm.” He wants to be your refuge, your strong tower and your fortress.
We were created with a space that was designed to be filled by God – and God alone. There is a cry within us for that void to be filled. Ecclesiastes 3:11 says that God has set eternity in our hearts. My life, your life, and lives all around us are reaching, searching to find that piece that will satisfy that longing. But fulfillment of that need will only be met by when the One who created it fills it. The things we DO or USE to satisfy our hearts will always lacking if God does not fill the spot FIRST.
I love my “adventuring” spirit – and I believe God loves it too. But I have learned that I must be fully anchored in God before my adventure begins. My life must be centered on living the life that Jesus called me to live – filled BY Him and THROUGH Him. Christ must satisfy my heart and then He will satisfy my longings. There is a popular song with the chorus “ There’s always going to be another mountain, I’m gonna want to make it move.” God has given me mountains, and a deep longing to climb them. But HE is the mover of mountains and He desires for my climb to be with HIM.
Father, I LONG for you
I pray that you would fill the longings of my heart with the fullness of who you are.
I pray that the desires of my heart would cause me to turn to you,
Guard my heart; keep me from turning to other things to satisfy.
May YOU and YOU alone fill the space that was created for YOU.
Lord Jesus, take my hand …
I want to have an adventure with you!